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(Image is of the five of us at the lake today, by five I mean myself and daughter, my best friend and her two daughters)

Have you ever had a day that you wanted to drop everything and just run away from reality? Run away from responsibility?
Well today I had one of those days and instead of ignoring it like an adult I pulled my daughter out of school and went with it. My best friend owns a house with a private community lake. I messaged her to see if she wanted company and she did because she wanted to go to the lake. It was her daughters early day and one of those very rare gorgeous days in Washington.
We went, we splashed, we laughed, and we enjoyed the perfect day.
I knew deep down to break out of the vicious cycle of depression I needed to gather energy I didn’t have and went. It might be a temporary fix to the problem but it felt freeing. Just being able to go when I decided to, I know it was irresponsible to pull my daughter out of school for fun. But God if she didn’t need a treat right along with me, she suffers from my depression too. Not in the same ways but with my temper, my lack of patients, my lack of motivation, or energy.
Now I am exhausted for the first time and I might get to sleep before 4 am.

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(Image is of a graphic image with the quote – “I have been putting a lot of thought into it and I just don’t think being an adult is gonna work for me”)